in the aftermath of yesterday night, i am feeling really drained but you know what, happier. haha. I needed to empty out badly to feel human again. I'm actually feeling quite normal now (: some sense of sanity has been restored so yesterday. after O'nite, which passed SUPER fast (really, act V was over in a flash! hahaha sagar) we had weeping session, camwhoring session, cleaningup session, and then we met our og (: who waited for us in nyny till 10pm :/ AND THEN till 10.30 for us to finish eating <3 i think our oglings are too cool for us, but okay i won't tell them that so soon. anyway i'm quite blehhh about not having gotten to know each of them on a personal level, that part really sucks like crap. actually i think even cherie who was OIC spent more time with us than i did with my og, and omg this part REALLY stinks D': it's like one of those regrets, but then not such a depressing one either because i don't know what else could have been done i mean storyline required that amount of time of the few of us so.. :'/ idk if it's possible to still get to know them? like maybe if they do continue hanging out. SIGH. i miss our og now idk why it's not like i was super close to any of them. hate how you meet people, find commonalities in your value systems etc, see the potential for friendship, and then poof - they're gone. like, there's not enough time you know? for building up. oh breaking down, hell yes. it's that easy to screw something up i should know. but to really build up friendships requires time, which is really scarce these days damn )': anyway I miss storyline too. came some points i didn't think i would, but yeah i do. why do we miss things only after we've lost them. like kie was saying. and it applied to everything! like. my ankle, the trust people have in you (potential strong friendships~), experiences. oh well. I've learnt a lot you know ): and I have huge regrets, which makes the ending even more -sigh-. but I guess this is called growing up! and i had a kind of htht with of all people cheeyeow yesterday during batch dance haha srsly random but he is great to talk to! totally gets what you're saying and i totally got what he was saying. okay anyw the mind is truly a powerful tool. i was thinking how as adolescents we can try our best to figure out some things in our minds, but if we don't know how to control our thinking then it can go out of hand and that's when we end up jaded etc.? so - while hobbling about in school i've met many nice people who would ask if you're okay even if they don't know you. which is quite heartwarming i think. i mean, even if it's just a passing question, it's still better than nothing. it's like. it shows they have abit of heart? like if i were superstressed and chionging about, i don't think i'd have time to ask a stranger i see whether her ankle is okay whether she needs me to carry her up some flight of stairs (despite being heavy) whether she needs me to get her bag (which was really light). quite nice to know (: MAKES ME THINK SOME OF THE J1S ARE REALLY NICE TOO HAHA! anyway okay uh where was i ah yes (: and you know oteam you make friends with new people in a hibye way sorta haha (: like even if you never really talked to them they are after all wearing the baby pink/blue g'alvea shirt and that makes all the difference so you wave anyway cheerilyyyyyy oh so cheerily (: anyway, mom has been, really, so nice. she keeps bringing me food from downstairs and she helped me bandage my ankle etc. it's not even hurting as much as before but it still is really bulbous which i don't quite get D: heck it!! I EXPECT TO BE UP AND RUNNING IN A WEEK'S TIME WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOD IS GOOD HALLELUJAH so all things did work out for everyone's good in the end (: more or less, i suppose! (: this chapter isn't over though, hell yeah it continues for about 3 more months.. | 
