live through this, and you won't regret

I need to buy pipagao my voice is going I can feel it

OK!!!!!!  THINGS ARE GOING WELL!!!!!!! EXHAUSTING, BUT!!!!!!

I'M STILL ALIVE!!!!!!

HALLELUJAH FOR THAT

every morning when he woke up he thanked the Lord for returning his soul to him.
what a way to start the day (:

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

MORNING, STARSHINE (:  THE EARTH SAYS HELLO!!!!!

My og shirt stinks.  It really has this permanent odour freaking gross ugh.  Okay not as bad as the camp kind of odour (ugh hate camps) it's more of the worn-out odour but still..!!!! I feel like I have to take another bath wtssss

I want my detergent-smelling shirts!!!!!

I really miss stumps )':  Ahh anyway.  Today we went to uncle's house for dins.  Shucks I've really missed his cooking haha!  I think he told mom he was going to try turkish dishes haha.  I kind of wasn't looking forward to tonight if he was really going to go through with that plan because, yknow.  I don't like being reminded of things I miss before I've completely moved on (and I take forever to move on from ANYTHING; no shit)

Well thankfully they weren't really turkish dishes he did some bryani-thing okay maybe this was a tad turkish I don't know!!!  It had a truckload of raisins (<3) inside, and bits of pineapple (<3) too.  Omg I seriously am in love with raisins right now (note to self: buy tomorrow); I had a load of rum & raisin after dinner too!!  Okay okay so food was great PASTA too, and GOOSE, and some fatty pork thing which was omg to die for and SALMON!!!!!!!!  Bloody smooth salmon whoa-oh!!!!!  Okay (:

So.........in between watching Star Wars (meh..) and 1408 (freaky show I found on starmovies) I took some books of uncle's; there was this one called SOULMATES I started on and ah, 

"The soul is inclined toward the past rather than the future, toward attachment to people, places, and events rather than detachment, and so it is not quick to move on.  In outer life, we may leave a person or a place; but in memory and dream the soul clings to these former attachments..the emotion of melancholy sometimes accompanies attachment"

Yay, justification.  Heh.

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before today evening was openhouse dryrun, and I've settled my costume for jaclyn AHH I'M SCARED OF HOW I'M GOING TO PLAY HEIDI BECAUSE I HATE SCREAMING THESE DAYS :\  and well, I can't dance that much hasn't changed.  but I ever so ADORE jfzk right now I owe him so much for his patience HAHAHA I'll never forget today how we were humping the wall outside pac for FREAKINGGGGGG long and uh, still couldn't get the bodywave shizz hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha fail fail fail but, yeah. (:  Love!!!!!

hellllllllooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

wow EVERYTHING'S OVER

i have so much to remind me of what's happened these past few days.  ok, firstly, RETREAT.  omg sigh.  ok I will not have a rep of this. the regret is just super hard to bear? other than that i really liked retreat like really got to think through some stuff.  ahh. okay let's go.

ok turkey trip fun fun FUN :D i miss spending so much time with darks and erks i think i talked more to them than I did from january to november this year hahaha. yeah and we also met some people near our ages! :D  who were really nice so i miss them too. bleh yeah i'm less of a sightseeing person and there wasn't any shopping (except touristy stuff) so, I miss the people more.  also I miss how I lived in the moment for once.

ok then it's time to get down to work.  HH!!! and storyline!!!

if eyes could bleed mine would be bleeding right now. ok fine they can mine aren't but they feel like they are GRAWR LET ME TELL YOU HOW I SPENT THE LAST 3 HOURS.  drawing shoelaces on paint.  srsly.  winnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.  i hate how i dont know how to use photoshop but yes i dont know how to use photoshop. SUE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i really think someone should

right. tmr is going to be zeh busiest day of my life. period please please please PLEASE do not come yet!!!!! ok fine i think its better if it comes tmr.  stillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll ): gosh this is so screwed up JUST when im going overseas??!?!? talk about luck.

ok.  i shall go sleep. and hope and pray that everything goes smoothly tmr. SHITLOAD TO DO MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless